Jersey got hit hard this winter....lots of snow and rain. Many people lost everything and their images on TV made me cry.
Then it happened to me and I wasn't sad, per se, but mad.
Mad that I had accumulates so much junk and now had to sift through it and decide what to with it all.
I had hoarded craft "stuff"". I truly feel I could have opened a store. Well, maybe not a store but rather a boutique....at least taught a class of some kind. Yeah, I could have done something
But no, I had held on to things I couldn't part with. No card or project was worthy of "that special" button, stamp, flower, or paper.
WOW! I held back from giving in order to save it for some highly honored occasion or person.
Did I have high hopes of becoming a contender in the stationary world or something? Was I waiting to make something for the President?... (actually I did make him a card after 911, he sent me a thank you and a picture).
So now, I have let go.
I let go of trying so hard to make things go my way, let go of over achieving (and if you knew me better, you would realize how big a feat that is), I have let go of worrying about what I should do next.
The flood came and forced me to realize that only God decides what I need to do.
I just have to pray, wait and listen.
The funny thing about all of that is: that while we where away skiing and the flood water were invading my hobbit hole ( a term of endearment my husband has for my craft studio) back home, I was up in Vermont making Artist Trading Cards (ATC) .
One of which was called "pray, wait and listen"
The listen part is "You are holding on to tight, let go.... I got you"
Now the birds are singing and I will just enjoy them and occasionally sneak a picture.
Will I make cards/tags? Yes, those which God calls me to make, when He calls me to make them.
Will I continue to take pictures, yes but not to HAVE to make a business out of it.....just for pleasure.
The flood has gone and I have some re-building to do. In my home and in myself.